I almost gave up on having him because my family was very angry about my decision to have him. I had to say goodbye to him on Tuesday. I was crying so hard when I left Chiaki-chan's house. She has been helping me to adopt Kou.
I gave up on many things in my life. Marriage, having a family, being a mum, leaving my cats and dog in the States, losing Hana Rose and being with Yuuri. I don't want to give up on Kou. The only thing keeps me going is that the fact I can be his mummy and see him grow. I can't give up on him. I just can't do that.
I can't wait to be his mummy officially on Sunday! 2 more days!